I’ll need to look at it again tomorrow and I still need an ending, a vignette of some kind. It’s so hard to get one right without turning maudlin.
J is coming over tonight and I asked her to read it; I’m nervous. It made Brett cry (well, swallow hard and blink a lot) and even though we’ve talked about these things I think that reading it is different. I also gave her a pseudonym in it but she can veto that or give herself another one as she sees fit.
I’m very nervous. I hope she likes it. I hope it doesn’t make her want to kick me in the shins.
I have two kids and a delightfully odd husband, Brett. My children are Noah (born to us in 1997) and Madison (born to her first mom, Pennie, in 2004 and brought to our family through a domestic, open adoption). They are my inspiration and also the reason I don't get more done around here.
I'm a writer and sometimes I get published, which is a nice thing. I write for joy, I write for money and when I'm very lucky, both things happen at the same time. My work appears in national publications including Yoga Journal, Disney's Family.com, Utne, Wondertime, Brain Child and Salon. Currently I am working on a book about my daughter's adoption and seeking representation for the proposal. I also own Smart Cookie Communications with my husband.
Alexa
January 30th, 2006 at 2:33 pm
Good luck! Endings are dreadfully hard, sometimes–I have to fight a tendency to wrap everything up in some cheesy way that makes me sound like “wise-old narrator” from a coming-of-age movie, or something.
I am sure you will think of something brilliant…
AmericanFamily
January 30th, 2006 at 3:41 pm
I don’t know if it is just my computer, but right now all your posts are GIGANTIC on the main page. Did J read the essay?