Not even a faint line to pin my hopes on and I’m 18 dpo so I can’t even pretend like it’s too early.

Dammit.

50% of women who will get pregnant on clomid will get pregnant in the first three months. This was month number three. Next month I want an IUI.

I need to start running again. It’s been too damn hot to run and my mental health is suffering. I don’t want to do the stairstep here at home because everything is such a mess. Again, dammit.

I got a letter from someone today regarding my Quiver-full article at The New Homemaker. She says that feminism killed Andrea Yates. By the way, the author of the letter has ten children so far.

I can almost guarantee, that Andrea [Y]ates, loved her children, but had gone through a form of psychological abuse from other women, and men. In my personal story, I have been severely orally attacked by other women, for having my children. I have been called a slut, a bitch, and unfit mother, the list goes on. We as a nation know that if a person is battered in this manner by a husband, or if it is a child being battered in this manner by a parent, then they will not have the resource to rise above it. Battered wives have murdered husbands, children have killed parents.
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It is a sad thing that the second most vulnerable population in our country is mothers, and especially mothers who throw off the yoke of feminism, and choose to stay at home, having lots of children, and homeschooling those children, (exactly the thing societies did all throughout history, up until the last 100 years).
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I feel that it is the anti-large family, anti-traditional women’s role propaganda, and the Feminism movement that Killed Andrea yate’s children, by destroying her spirit.

Now I’ve read my history books. People weren’t always having large families. Women didn’t used to “stay at home” raising their kids. Homeschooling? People weren’t schooled. Throughout the centuries and across cultures there have been lots of different ways to raise kids. In other words, people weren’t happily sitting around their farms with their kids until the feminists came along. Read your history books. Read some anthropology. I’m tired of people talking about the “good old days.” There have never been any good old days.

I’m sorry that she’s been trashed by people for having lots of kids. She says, “…it has brought me to my knees, at times making me feel like all I have left to do is die, because I am so defective, because I am fertile, because God has chosen to bless me with 10 children thus far.” Well, I can relate to feeling defective because of fertility issues; she has my sympathy. Really. She deserves support, too. Ironically, I suppose, as a feminist I do support her choices even if I wouldn’t make them for myself and even if she doesn’t support my choice to be a feminist.

Andrea Yates was very, very mentally ill. I do think that she needed more support but I don’t think feminism stole it from her. I think her husband kept her isolated and I think that she, in her illness, kept herself isolated. I imagine that shame was a big part of this. I also think that her religious extremism included the belief that God heals and illness comes from Satan. I believe that this is why she continued in her quiver-full mindset despite the doctor’s encouragement to stop having children. You can see some examples of folks who believe this way at The Blessed Mother. The message board was one of the places that I went to go get interview subjects for the article.

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