Changed my mind
Aug 30, 2002 Infertility
Remember how I said I was fine about getting my period? Well, I’m not fine. I just got a birth announcement from a dear friend with a brand-new beautiful baby boy (oh, he is gorgeous!!!) and that tiny little voice way back in my head whispered, “Why not you?”
I hate that other people’s happiness reminds me of my unhappiness. My friend is a wonderful mother whose first child was born during a difficult period in her life and she pulled through and SHINED. She was such a heroic mama and I’m so glad that this time she’s had the love and support that she needs and DESERVES. Her son is as beautiful as his big sister and god I’m happy for her … but so sad for me.
Rats. Rats rats rats.
August 31st, 2002 at 12:36 am
I’m sorry. I have been there and I have not forgotten how I felt.
August 31st, 2002 at 2:17 am
Oh Dawn. I won’t give you cyber-hugs, but I am thinking of you, and I am so sorry.
August 31st, 2002 at 11:49 am
Oh dawn {{{{{{{{I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN}}}}}}}}}} I’ve been there. I remember exactly how it felt. I still get twinges of it and we aren’t even trying right now. We aren’t “trying” because I just don’t think I can go through it all again. I know you don’t want cyber hugs but I feel like I NEED to give them. I am so sorry.
August 31st, 2002 at 8:10 pm
All I can do is give cyberhugs.
((((((((dawn)))))))))
August 31st, 2002 at 9:11 pm
{{{Dawn}}}
I have been there too, both when we were trying very unsuccessfully and also after miscarriages, and I will never forget how it feels. It’s so hard when you want to be happy for your friend, but their joy only reminds you of your own loss. Hard times indeed. Hang in there and know that I’m continuing to send wishes for healing and peace to you.
September 8th, 2002 at 5:30 pm
Oh I wish I knew what to say…my heart breaks for your situation. I remember trying for our daughter and being so upset every month we did not suceed. We tried for 6 months and so obviously I have no idea the extent of your pain, but can only imagine. I am sad for you, but I also know how brave you are. Just your attempt to move on takes enormous strength-every attempt you make. Many thoughts and hugs your way…:)