I forgot to update
I had a meeting this morning at 8am and had trouble sleeping last night. I’m too tired to keep track of things.
The meeting was good. It was a “welcome new members” for NAWBO and I talked for awhile with Wendy Goldstein who owns Costume Specialists. She’s the nicest woman. Every time I’ve been at a meeting with her she makes an effort to connect with all the attendees. Today I talked to her some about how life sort of makes your way clear but that usually that only seems obvious in hindsight.
I definitely feel in limbo. I’m throwing out a lot of broad effort and trusting (hoping) that what comes back to me will also lead me to the next thing. I know that one of the things I’m good at is seeing connections between disparate things and finding a way to bring those things together to make a more cohesive package. In regards to marketing, I can see what message a person/company is projecting (because once that thing exists, it has a brand and then you can really only shape it but sometimes the shape of it is more flexible than people realize) and I can see what serves that projection and what doesn’t. But I don’t really know how to “prove” that I can do this and I don’t know how to turn that into a service and I don’t know if that’s what I should be doing.
I think about these things as it relates to creative work, too, and it’s become much easier for me to see when a project would serve me and when it would be better to walk away. Like it is in everything else, I think the key to having a fulfilling creative life and a prosperous one is balance.
I’m also still learning how to work with the up-down of full-time freelancing whether that’s keeping my spirits up on a day like today when they’re really dragging or it’s facing down the scut work of forms and files. It’s getting easier but it’s still not easy.
I got further in my sample chapter and then got stuck because I want to do an overview of the book in the latter half of it and I’m not really sure where the book is going. It doesn’t need to be set in stone but there are some major path choices I haven’t made yet. I’m not letting myself begin editing the half I’ve already done because I know I’ll use that to avoid addressing this next big chunk, besides which until I know the book’s trajectory I don’t want to do any substantial edits because what I want/need might change. But I was pleased to get the draft done.
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