this woman’s work

I decided I needed flowers

Jul 22, 2007 work work work

(The flowers are my new blog background if you’re reading this elsewhere.)

I’m fighting a shady-gray mood. I’m worried about some things — nothing too huge and I think it’s a matter of hanging in there. I mean, isn’t it usually?

I’ve been thinking about scarcity of resources lately and perceived scarcity of resources. I’m thinking about it because I remain worried about getting work even though I know there’s plenty of work out there and it’s just a matter of putting myself in the right place at the right time.

Sometimes when I’m talking to someone else about work and I hear the fear/worry in their voice I get sucked in even though I know that fear/worry is normal but isn’t necessarily a realistic look at things. At least, not when it comes to this. But I hear in them what I hear in me — “What if there isn’t enough???”

It can be paralyzing but that makes it a self-fulfilling prophecy.

I think part of it for me is that I lose momentum. The two assignments I had due over the last couple of weeks were different than what I’ve been focusing on lately and I’m having trouble getting back into my groove. I tell you though, one thing I really like about having a lot of different avenues to make money/get work is that I never get bored. I like having lots of different projects even though sometimes it can be hard to switch gears.

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