My big project is due tomorrow and I’m on the tail-end of it. It’s been challenging because it has a rigid format but it’s on a subject that requires a lot of tender-loving-care. When I get this one done, I have a second one due later in the month. So that’s what I’m working on right now while I listen to Groove Salad (I’ve been vacillating between that, their other station Secret Agent, and Folk Alley when I’m writing lately).
Let’s see — tomorrow I have a phone meeting in the morning and writing group that evening. On Thursday I’m taking Jessica to one of my networking meetings because the speaker is someone who interests her. It’ll be nice to see her kid-free and I hope we have a little time to gab either before or after the meeting although she’ll be running from school before and to work straight after so maybe not.
I like having a lot of work and I like having a lot of different work but I’m still figuring out how to manage it emotinally. I have enough time but I’m so used to feel terrified that I won’t be able to get it all done that I still have this stomach-jerking, tooth-grinding worry hanging over me. I have to keep reminding myself that Brett is home now and I’m not going to have to cram it all in between dinner and bedtime. Old habits die hard, I guess. So I have to say, “Yo, Dawn, you’re hitting all of your deadlines and you still have time to play. Snap out of it!” But guilt and tension were constant companions for three years — it’s hard to shrug off.
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I like this theme, really like the colors. The blue is what I want to paint my living room…good luck finishing the project.
Oooh, I love listening to Groove Salad! Doomed is a good station, too – I just can’t listen to it when everybody else is awake.
I can really relate to this post, particularly the yo! relax! part. I finished my book, turned in the ms. about two weeks ago, and I’m still having trouble relaxing. I can’t shake off the feeling that I need to be writing, that there’s work to be done, pressure pressure pressure. But it IS done, and the most substantial work phase is over, and I need to just relax already…! If you figure out how to do it, let me know???
I love Groove Salad…good stuff.
Oh man I hear ya. I live in a perpetual state of anxiety, worrying about whether or not I’ll make my deadlines and just how I’m going to do it. This freelancing thing is a lot more challenging than I thought it would be. The best part is, hubby thinks I like the “quicky hurry on to the next thing” mentality and jokes I’d be bored with out it. But really, I wouldn’t, I swear…