A blog I don’t (won’t) link to
Awhile back I wrote about a birth mom blog I was reading and I don’t link to it ‘cuz I get a lot of traffic and I know that when I link to smaller blogs, people sometimes come and say, “Hey, I got a lot of links!” And this woman’s blog seems more like a private journal. Yes, she links to on the internet and you can find it if you look (I found it after all) but given the nature of her topic, well, I decided not to link.
She’s a birth mom, like I said, and she just had her second baby and she is planning, I believe, at this point to place him with the same family. But this birth went differently and I am so amazed by her. She has such strength and commitment and she has not let anyone else take control from her as she works through what she needs and wants to do.
I’m reading it and I’m dreading the pain she’ll have if (when) she places and part of me wants to end differently. But I’m realizing in a way I hadn’t before that keeping her baby is not necessarily meant to be her happy ending.
Anyway, I wish I could link to it and not feel bad about that. She’s come here before and linked herself so … well, I guess you can find her if you want to but I just don’t think I can right now.
Hi it’s me, the birthmom. Dawn, thanks for your sensitivity. I’ll go ahead and put the link out there — it’s http://feracious.blogspot.com. My blog does read like a private journal, yes, but in a way it’s easier for me to share my deepest thoughts with strangers than with the people who know me best. And if my experience can help anyone else out there, I’d sure hate to keep my words hidden.