Crossroads (again)
Jun 19, 2004 Writing
I’m a little frustrated right now. I don’t know if my job will be renewed or not so that’s kinda hanging over my head. There are definite pros and cons to getting rehired and sometimes for fun I like to torture myself by seeing only the cons of both possibilities.
Then there’s the downside to homeschooling, which is that the kids are home all day. Don’t get me wrong, I love my children and I love mothering them and yes, I’m passionate about homeschooling but sometimes I drift into a hazy little fantasy that features me working uninterrupted on my laptop while the children romp joyously under someone else’s tutelage.
Of course Noah isn’t much of a problem, seeing as how he’s ready, willing and able to work/play with minimal supervision. And I can also nickel and dime time away from him to everyone’s benefit. Madison, however, poses a larger challenge. I just can’t wrap my head around handing her off to anyone right now and so I won’t but that doesn’t mean that I have my moments of wishful thinking.
Brett has pointed out to me yet again that I’m a “what’s next?” kind of person. Now that we’ve gone through the adoption, I’m shopping for another something to work on. I have never been good at maintaining, which is a shame since that makes up so much of life.
June 19th, 2004 at 2:36 pm
Brett’s so smart. I’d never thought of it that way- but I’m a “what’s next” sort of person too. I need to work on that.
June 19th, 2004 at 7:13 pm
What’s next–me too. [heavy sigh of exhaustion]
June 19th, 2004 at 9:31 pm
Well, I was going to suggest redesigning the graphics on your site (not really), but I see you’ve done that.
Maybe you should take on some 3-month-or-so project and then see where you are.
June 19th, 2004 at 10:36 pm
Me three–that’s why I think I’m never quite satisfied with the here-and-now. I’m always looking for the next project.
But that’s what keeps me going, I think! Anyway, how could I change it even if I should?
June 21st, 2004 at 10:06 am
Why don’t you arrange some “swap-time” once a week w/another mom? One day a week, she can watch Madison for 3-4 hours, and visa-versa. I belong to a co-op, and it is great - you know she is being watched by a mother, and there’s no guilt - you’ll be returning the favor as well.