A hell of a time
Aug 30, 2003 Adoption
I am rife with anxiety. I think this is the waiting for the baby thing. In theory we’re getting a baby so we are nesting. But the baby may not come for a long, long time. Or the baby might come tomorrow.
This is really hard.
For the first while I was just hanging out, feeling calm about the whole thing but lately my anxiety has revved way up. Part of this may be that there are other parts of my life — professional, mostly — that feel very unstable to me.
I’m not sure how to cope with this but Brett and I have been talking about it a lot, which helps. I also can’t figure out what triggered this sudden major upsweep in nerves; I don’t see that our situation has changed much.
If waiting for a match is this hard, I shudder to think what it will be like when we have our match and are just waiting for the three days to be up to actually get placed.
August 30th, 2003 at 11:02 pm
Dawn, I know how hard this wait is. You go through all the paperwork as fast as you can so you can get one step closer, and then it’s just “hurry up and wait”. And the killer is, you just don’t have any clue how long the wait will be! I hate this feeling too, the ‘not knowing’ when our match will come — but I know that it WILL come someday (sooner than later I hope!)
Hang in there!
August 31st, 2003 at 2:41 pm
The uncertainty has to be awful; I can’t imagine it. Hang in there!
September 4th, 2003 at 4:15 pm
I can relate to this one! As a soon-to-be-adoptive mom, it sometimes feels like getting a child will never happen. But when I see friends going to China or Russia to pick up their daughters, I know it really does happen, so I keep waiting ….